Shrink wrapped
Hey everyone! I took a hiatus this summer basically because I could not think of a darn thing to say. At least that would be at all interesting. And in fact, still cannot. Who knew dealing with all my issues would leave me so....boring? Or at least quiet.
I told my therapist that a few sessions ago, and she said that I need to be boring, I must be boring, that boring is, as I experience/interpret it, in fact not really boring at all. In fact, NORMAL people feel like this all the time. Not wracked with fear alternating with swan dives into vats of grief. NORMAL folks don't live in a constant state of near or flat-out hysteria. Who knew?
Can I just tell you I have spent the last few months sampling a smorgasbord of therapeutic delights....eye movement therapy for trauma, hypnosis, inner child work, shame release, reparenting....as well as all the usual talk-talk-talk.
And I am here to tell you I feel good. Not such a prisoner to emotions both old and new. The traumas are starting to fade and dissintegrate. The drama has left my way of thought, and the way I interpret things.
Call me crazy, but that shit really works.
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Honestly, isn't that why we blog? Therapy.
So glad you are back - bring on the BORING!
Do you feel like becoming more normal has had a positive or negative effect on your writing? I read something a while ago about how much of the best art is produced by people who are a little bit (or more than a little bit) crazy.
...and welcome back.
Glad to know you're feeling better.
I know what reparenting is. What's shame release?
I tried hypnosis for awhile. Only got hypnotized for about 5 min in the first session - never went under again.
the kind of hypnosis my therapist does is just deep relaxation and imagery guided by her words more or less. it has done wonders for my anxiety.
many of us were shamed as children...by parents who didn't have all the knowledge we do today about child raising. shame was a t the core of a lot of my pain and inability to cope with failure and loss. releasing shame (as I experience it) involves inner child stuff but also in learning new ways to think about things
The internet is a wonderful tool and it makes it so easy to have hundreds of really awesome acquaintances, but it also makes it really easy to spend too much of your life getting involved in the lives of people you wouldn't get on a plane to go see. Time is precious, and it's best spent on your nearest and dearest. Just an honest fact.
I understand wanting to have the time to keep up with all the wonderful people you've met online, but it's just not always possible, so no worries. ;) Your blog should be whatever you need it to be, not some sort of social obligation. That's my $0.02, at least.
funny timing - that's kinda what I was doing with my most recent post - trying to make other people's words sink in, and have a 1-spot reminder of them being said.
and, hey, nothing sounds silly if it works. valuing ourselves less than others sounds silly!!